Hey my Loves,
Okay so this is an important sketch for me. For those of you who have been here a bit longer than a year, you know I’ve been in bad relationships, right? I don’t think I ever shared this with you, but in my previous relationship (and a few others before), I got, next to manipulation and mental abuse, also in touch with physical abuse. It came to the point of being pushed to the wall and this one person telling me “I made him hurt me”. I got told that at the beginning of my EMDR therapy for PTSD, that he wouldn’t stay with me if I wouldn’t perform sexually.
Since a child, I think I always mistook abuse for love. This is one thing I learned from therapy already, to self-love and to also not allow abuse in my life anymore. I’m grateful to be in a healthy, good and happy relationship now.
I felt guilty for all the “mistakes” I made in the past, but honestly, I’m glad I learned. I see now how it’s supposed to be like. Thank God 🙏🏼
Unfortunately PTSD, trauma and most of all the abuse is something that I couldn’t help. Their actions were not my mistake. Helping myself and setting my boundaries were my actions. And hell I’m pretty proud of myself for searching help 🙏🏼
Love you all so much 💜