Hey my Loves 💜,
How are you doing? We’re already halfway through the week and I don’t think I can’t properly deal with it haha! Today I hope to be finishing most of the featured comics I already have lined up and post them here on Patreon as well.
I will also start preparing the care packages a bit already, which is something I already look forward to!
I’m working on a book proposal, which will be mostly sex ed and a section on real vulvas which I called out for on social media. I received a huge turn up (is that how you call it, when many people were enthousiastic to participate and reached out?) so I am actually planning on taking some time by the end of the month to work on that. And then there are a ton of illustrations I need to work on for my new website! GUYS.. I need to make 8-something illustrations that need to be on the website (like for a 404 page, commissions page, about page, etc..), next to that I need to get my book proposal very much up to date ALL by the end of the month and I thiiiiink.. I *think* I am maybeeee putting a tad too much on my plate. I’m loving it all, don’t get me wrong. But I kind of didn’t think too much about the fact that I actually have to make a bit of extra content for the webshop lay-out as well. But on the other hand.. it’s probably going to look great!
Sooo.. I am finding myself in a bit of euhmm.. pain in my muscles.. pain in my bones (I think?) everything seems to dislocate lately, or tense up. I’ve had a dislocation of a rib, tense muscles in my neck and clenching my jaws, then dislocating that jaw as well. I am having weird break outs and sores and the last few days I’ve been in bed at 7PM. Not sleeping necessarily, just keeping myself from escaping in work and just laying down, or reading, or drawing.
Ohh yess.. I said escaping. Because I love it so much, I would keep on going. And real life is just feeling a bit too real atm. I have been getting some PTSD triggers of which I got really upset about, had a rough month last month that I’m not fully recovered from, BUT I want to stay positive, and positivity helps me a lot. Although I need to find myself some time to *face* the adversity too, but that’s hard to do when everyone around me says I should “just be positive because all is going well for me” because they can just see the appearance and my smiles, the work I do,… And then real life (the physical life I mean, cause online is my actual real life) seems a bit lonely to me.
Just acknowledging it already is hard, and escaping in books and art is just an easy thing for me to do, it feels good and it feels safe. However putting myself up with a huge workload isn’t that good on my body. And I definitely need to take care of it a lot better.
Alright this isn’t a mini update anymore, this is more or less just me saying so much and nothing at the same time.
Thank you all for being here, I LOVE YOU!!! And you are my safe haven. Truly! 💜